haiz ... can't do my proj... yet feeling so awake... time to blog my feelings...

During lunch u showed me those sms he sent to u... i knew tt darling has tried very hard to tell him le... but he kept insisting on being like tt... i dun it at all... i've tried to put myself into his shoes... but still can't accept the fact tt y must he be like tt... last time he was the one who dun wan u and kept giving u the cold shoulder... look at now... when he realises tt i'm wooing u... he keeps saying he misses u and stuff like tt... what the FUCK is he thinking???

Then in his email he sent u... he wanted to meet u to end it all once and for all... he thinks he is rdy to go out wif u... so he thinks by going out wif my darling will end this confusion??? I tell u... NO!!!!! cos i think the way he puts it sounds doubtful... dear dear... i'm not trying to be bias or wat... i'm just giving u my very honest opinions... as ur bf... i would say the same things to u even as a close frd... there is one thing i dun quite get it... y does he say tt by gng out wif ger ger will end everything??? and say tt he sill stick by the rule and dun wan u... (Wat???) given the fact in the sms he say he will wait for u... then somemore wan ger ger to be ur mei mei???

(Wat the???) he wants to wait for u and now wan ger ger to be ur mei mei???? (Wat the FUCK???) i dun get it at all.... it just doesn't make sense to me...

Sorry ger ger if i reacted in this iiiidiotic manner... u keep telling me not to sian but in the end i still become sian... Perhaps I should be more open minded abt it... I've tried le... but it seems tt he gets more irritable and irritable to me... at first i dun feel anything to him de... cos i can understand how he feels.... i've even tot of befriending wif him also... but gradually from the way he treats this situation... i have started to despise him... from nth to dislike to hate to despise to...... dunno how many levels can i get into... lolz... Paiseh la... i dun mean to feel like tt de... but just from the way he's reacting... i dun like it at all...

All these leads to y i dun like... or shld i say... dun wan u to contact him for the very moment... actually i dun mind him contacting u de... becos afterall he can still be frds wif u... he needs some time to cool it down... but if he keeps contacting u... i'm afraid tt he will nvr forget and this thing will keep dragging... which ultimately... hurt him even more...

Ger ger... what i say above may not be true or the correct answer... it's ok tt u may think otherwise but this are based on my truest opinions... i may be wrong ... i may be right... who knows... i also dunno... hahaha...

Just hope tt ger ger will move along wif LaoBa.... and malao... and dun let this affect the both of us... Thanx for letting me noe abt this.... i'm really glad u told me abt it... LaoBa and malao will look after u de... and LaoBa will alwayz stay by ur side...