Today is the start of school after a short CNY break... things are getting more and more hectic le... esp when all those projs and mid term tests start to pile up... so i dun think i'll be blogging often then... but i'll try my best to update dar dar... and i think tt this blog will contain alot of my own thoughts about some of the issues...

Saw kelly in the cs3253 lect... she was sitting behind alone... looking quite qiao cui and upset...i felt tt i shld sit with her rather than leave her alone... so i went up and tok to her abit... she did smile to me abit... but from a glance can tell tt she's totally depressed... and tt she had cried alot... i didn't noe wat to tok to her cos she was totally sian lor... also abit difficult to engage conversation with her...

haiz... about this matter... feel tt she shld "zhen zuo"(i'm using the correct meaning liao... ) and be tough.... i can understand tt it's very disheartening to break up from ur loved ones... esp when there isn't any quarrel involved or watsoever.... just becos of the fact there isn't any feel among them liao... somehow i think tt this is quite a serious problem cos communication plays a very big role in r/s... but in this case they seem to have neglected this aspect... but wat puzzles me is... dar dar u told me tt they already knew about this small crack in the r/s, and yet nth is done to amend it... tt's y when u told me abt it i was wondering how come at times they can dun tok at all de... does tt mean after a 3 yr r/s there isn't any more left to tok abt??? or both parties have become sian of each other??? hmmm... this sets me pondering abt our future... but i dun foresee such a prob tt will arise(i use my head to guarantee tt)... cos basically... both of us r just too talkative le ba!!! hee... anyway... i have to say tt i shld not pt fingers and blame anyone in this situation... cos it takes 2 hands to clap... one hand doesn't participate... tt's it man... if there is some crack in the r/s both parties shld be willing to share their thoughts with each other and try to cover away the crack... and not waiting for miracles to happen... cos miracles only happen when u do sth abt it... n also... let this serve as a lesson not to them but to the pple ard them... including dar dar and me... in this way together we can build a stronger r/s...

ok... jump to next topic... abt dar dar and jie jie... erm... i noe i can't give too much opinions on this... i dunno if i shld interfere too much on ur family matters... but i noe i can't stand there and watch show and so nth abt it... becos it matters dar dar alot... and U mean alot to me... whatever things u r unhappy i'll be glad to give u a listening ear... try my best to console u and make u laugh... i noe i still need improvement and i shall continue to work hard on tt!!! back to topic... i agree with u tt family shld be given the upmost priority and importance... tt day when jie jie got back late... dar dar was fuming mad at her... haiz... also no choice... cos when business,career and money is concerned ... pple will tend to forget abt their priorities... i think jie jie has misunderstand tt... but it also takes dar dar to give her ur full understanding... also dunno who to write on this la...

dar dar... wo zhen de hao xiang ni!!!... although only 2 days have passed... but i'm already missing like hell liao... i wanna hug u... make u smile... kiss u on ur soft lips and smooth cheeks... tok to u abt lotsa stuff... play and fool ard with u... tease with u... ultimately to make u happy... hee... wondering if tmr i can see u... cos the first thing i'm gonna do to u is to hug u tight and kiss u... Muackz!!! I love U

(i was supposed to finish this blog by ytd nite de... but was too tired to continue writing... saved it as drafts so i just wrapped up the rest by today...)

just finished toking to my baby dar dar... hee... haven't been updating abt this festive period... so shall make a brief blog abt the last few days b4 i get eaten up by zZz monster...

CNY day 1(chu yi):
our relatives came to our house... need to replace my dad's place in accompanying my other relatives in mahjong... i played 2 rnds of mahjong and won quite a lot... think abt 100 plus dollars... my other cousins were either watching vcd or playing ps2... we had a sumptuous dinner prepared by my mama and soon after tt my relatives left at abt 9+...

CNY day 2(chu er):
mama, bro and i went to da yi's house... first time i played "in-between" with my cousins and realised tt this game is interesting... cos u can lose alot within mins... we also played blackjack and dai di... then in the noon i had another one and a half rounds of mahjong with my relatives... was heng and i won quite alot too... after dinner i quickly left and made my way to dar dar's house... so over at dar's house i saw some of ur relatives... but didn't get to see most of them cos i was rather late... i taught and at the same time helped dar's mum play daidi... then after tt dar, jie jie and her bf and me played mahjong together... believe it or not... i manage to win 20 plus dollars again... hahaha... dunno y so heng de... had actually earned enuff for my cab fare...

CNY day 3(chu san):
went to san yee's house and played mahjong again... wah.. think i'm really mahjong marathon during these few days... this was the time when i did sth wrong... cos i didn't reply back dar dar when she smsed me... i knew dar dar smsed me... but i couldn't stop to reply back cos my uncles were playing too fast le... somemore i was winning money back then... later scared they say me waste time... haiz... so i had to wait for the whole game to finish... after the game when i called u... u sounded quite pek chek cos u were already quite sian tt i said tt i couldn't come to ur ah ma's house... i was quite shocked when u told me not to come... didn't realised tt i made such a big mistake by not replying to my baby... then after when u came to bring me... ur face was quite black and u didn't sound ok... i was feeling very guilty and remorseful cos i didn't intend to cause u to be like tt de... so i tried my best to apologize to u and explain things clearly... fortunately... i was glad tt dar dar wasn't angry with me le... i love u and i didn't wan to make my baby unhappy...

i saw and greeted dar's ah ma... dar's ah ma was so amiable and qin qie... and guess wat... i helped dar's mum play mahjong again... wahahhaa... felt pressure cos it wasn't my money and i had to play with dar's relatives for the first time... heng i got win abit b4 she took over my place... get to see dar's cousin... felt sorry for her tt such a thing had to happen to her at this moment... but tt day i felt tt she wasn't herself as the way she laughed wasn't very natural... but fortunately she had dar and jie jie to give her support and care...


today went to dar's house to pei each other... helped with dar's schwork by some cheating means(googling!!!)...haha... though nvr really helped her in understanding(my database knowledge just sux man!!!)... fell aslp on dar dar's cosy bed... this slp lasted one plus hrs until dar dar woke me up from my deep slumber... quite paiseh cos dar's mama saw me slping on her daughter's bed... we played blackjack with ur mama and kor kor... in the end ur kor kor became the big winner and dar dar lost quite a bit... i managed to win only a few dollars la... ate pig intestines soup again for dinner... tasted quite delicious and i ate hastily to fill up my hungry stomach... lolz... later in the nite played "in - between" with ur kor kor and cousin... it was really an exciting game as everyone betted quite heavily... esp when ur cousin betted 100 bucks staright after losing 50 bucks... xiong man... hahaha... instead of catching the last bus... i pei my baby dar dar until 3 plus... cos i wanted to see u more... then we began to tok abt our future plans for getting a hdb flat for the both of us... somehow i felt the need to noe all these stuff now and have a rough idea cos it would be too late to decide in the future when i marry u...

(continued from ytd...... )

honestly... i'm quite excited abt toking all these... even looked up for the hdb website to search for the necessary info for applying a hdb... seems tt we r eligible to apply for now... but maybe it's too soon like everyone have said... but i still think it's gd to noe now rather than panic later... cos i really wanted to give my dar dar a shelter to live as early as possible... i dun wanna waste any of ur chin chun... cos generally gals chin chun tend to be more limited to their age... so... i feel tt for now i will draft a rough plan for our future...(perhaps create a link to this blog under the main header...lolz)...

ok... think i shall blog sth abt today ba... today went to bugis to pei dar dar after u had finished ur proj... the reason i insisted to go out with u today is becos today is our 6mth anniversary... i didn't want u to stay at home... i wanted to go paktou with u de... tot u would finish late de... hahhaa... in the end have to let my poor baby wait for so long... paiseh ah... hee.. today dar dar looked very pretty... even though u had little makeup on u still look very young and vibrant... tt's y i kissed u alot today... lolz... played a very fun game at the kids arcade at seiyu... had so much fun over there... cos it was really burning my calories off man!!! only play for abt 20 mins i already shed 300+ calories... but hor... we ended up eating pork asparagus and chicken meatballs...hahaha... think all those exercise had gone into waste liao... we walked to raffles city and did some window shopping... showed u the place tt i bought ur present for ur 21st bdae... supposedly can buy dar dar's wallet de.... but in the end the display set was dirty and there weren't any more stocks for tt le... dar dar seemed very disappointed tt u didn't get to buy tt wallet u wanted... but nvm... we can always go to other places to buy de... dun worry dar dar... u will have ur wallet sooner or later de... :) ... after tt i sent dar dar back home and played a bit of in between again.. lolz... this time win a few dollars... paiseh ah dar dar... made u lose 3dollars... hahaha... the finale so funny... hee... u really brighten up my day...

i think tt sums up my blog le... have so much fun for the past few days... when sch opens think need to jiayou le... haha... ok la... now gotta wait for my dar dar to finish eating so tt i can tok to her...

this morning went to geylang temple to pray my dad... come to think of it... quite long nvr pray my dad le... bu zhi bu jue... 6 mths have laredy passed since the day he left... we offered our dad vegetarian food and asked him to eat while we prayed... in my heart i was telling him tt mama, bro and myself are doing fine... and would bring dar dar to pray him some time later in the future... cos i think tt he had been wanting to see my gf de when he was alive then... so must let him see tt how cute and pretty my dar dar is... wahahahhaha...

we went to san yee's place in the noon... long time nvr see some of my cousins liao... seems tt during the CNY period we would be able to see each other... i played a game of MJ with the adults... tot i would lose de.... but ended up winning $5... hee... after tt we had a reunion dinner with my relatives over at my san yee's place... we had steamboat and i ate till very full...think during this festive season i will grow pui-er and pui-er...

time really passes fast man... now it's already cny le... tmr my relatives will come to my house...

oh ya... think i'll write this b4 i forget... hahaha... it's gotta to do wif my baby dar dar... today when i went out with my mama to buy 4d at ntuc... my mama actually asked what beverage u like...hahaha... i was stunned lor... so i told her u drink plain water de and A&W root beer... the next thing i noe i my mama told me to buy 2 dozen cans of root beer... so tt when dar dar come u can drink sth u like... besides... she also told me tt she would open the can of abalones when u come... wah... think my mama likes u alot... cos somehow or the other she would mention ur name de lor... ^_^

ok la... shall keep my blog short... or else ah dar will complain i write grandmother story... lolz... ok la... tt's all for today... if tmr got time then i'll update tmr ba...

There's so much to write abt for today's blog... just came back from a tiring day... but not as tired as my dar dar and her family had experienced during their work... hee...

finally managed to complete most of the tasks at the last minute... it was kinda rush and i could see myself running ard and ard... felt like a silly fool at times... was in sch today when dar told me tt u were going to visit ur cousin... then soon after tt i called mum and told her tt i would be eating at home... only to realize tt my bro's sprained his ankle in his game of basketball... couldn't get him over the phone... called mama again... then she told me another stunning news... my uncle fell and hit his head on the grd while climbing the stairs... heard tt he was hit pretty badly on his forehead...there was a lot of blood and he went to clinic to see the doctor... doc refused to adminster him and directed him to the hospital... luckily nth bad had happened... ended up in 8 stitches... X_x ... oh man... hopefully he'll be alright... my mama even joked abt him going to the polyclinic on thurs to "bai nian"... hahha..... bro visited the clinic's doctor and was directed to the polyclinic for his x-ray... heng nth serious happened .... no fracture or whatsoever... he was presribed painkillers and swelling pills...

So i had to helped my mama sell her hp today... cos she kept complaining tt the price of the hp fall too rapidly... then no choice i had to rush to sell her phone away... managed to get $220 for the deal... gave my mama the money but she refused... then i only managed to force $50 to her... soon after tt i went to specialists shopping centre to collect the abalone gift set... the person gave me only one plastic bag which couldn't hold the heavy set... the carrier tore and the next thing i knew... the abalone sauce dropped and hit my left toe... ouch!!!... hurried back to ask for another carrier bag... haiz...

met with kayv and tat at heeren... went shopping for a while and we ate dinner at a muslim indian store... the food was horrible... kayv's nasi bryani was too cold... tat's nasi goreng was too spicy and my mee goreng was too salty... yucks... then i complained to the person... simply too sucky man... they served me another plate of nasi goreng... this time round they gave me a very big plate of nasi goreng with egg and some keropok... hahaha... i was quite shocked and i asked the lady boss y she gave me such a big plate... then she told me tt it's alright and said "happy new year"... hahaha... in the end i couldn't finished the whole plate even though i gave some portion to leng... hahaha (erm... pardon for my singlish.... hee)

after our dinner... we walked all the way to john little at ps... tat bought a berms and leng bought 3 shirts... tat also bought the salad dryer b4 meeting the taiwan gal... hahaha... he was such in a hurry man... so xian shi... hahaha... but can understand la... cos he always like tt de la....

leng and i continued to walk to simlim and we took bus back home... hee... wat a tiring day... but i missed my dear dar dar all the time... thinking of u whenever i go...

hmmm... so tat's all for today's events... haiz... so much things happened today... hopefully all will be gd for both of our families after the new year... think tt ur cousin is under very emotional depression... haiz... how can tt guy like tt... he had already committed the mistake b4 le but still nvr repent... y can't he be more faithful to his wife??? sometimes i wonder issit tt his wife can't bear him kids then he's like tt??? but even if so... he shouldn't go to the extent of having an affair outside... there's no reason for such acts... he had made the exchange of vows during the marriage... but how come still like tt??? haiz... pui... it's definitely a treacherous thing to do to a woman... pui... think it's the right decision to leave the guy... cos he'll nvr repent le... there's no way to trust him... cos he already broken the trust of her and most imptly... he broke his own trust... i felt sorry tt ur cousin has to undergo such turmoil... esp during this coming festive season... she really needs xtra supervision and care from her family in this moment now...

relationship probs are really a headache... heardfrom dar dar tt kelly and peiyee both faced the same r/s probs... their prob: there is no fun/excitement anymore... my wild guess - i feel tt this might be a a miscommunication prob ba.... perhaps there is sth wrong going on le... but both sides kept mum abt it ba... and this could drag for a very long time... and when prob occurs... it may become a really headache then... for kelly's case... i think terry(did i spell correctly?) may suddenly realise tt kelly is not the one... tt's y he said those things to kelly ba... as for peiyee... tot she's ok with her bf de on v-day... haiz... dunno y suddenly become like tt... walao... y must this kind of thing happen b4 CNY??? aiya... hopefully they will be alright too...

think i shall stop writing for now le... cos so many things have been happening... and all these ain't gd at all... so how??? there's really nth tt we can do abt it... but lessons can be learnt... really hope after the new year every thing will turn for the better... then lessen probs for my dear dar dar... ok la... stop here le... else u'll sleep even b4 finishing my blog... hahaha...

~ a better tomorrow ~

just finished toking to my baby dar dar... glad tt u r feeling better liao... this noon when i was toking to u over the phone i found tt u didn't sound alrite... cos u had problems doing the tut... do until sian... alamak... i didn't realise tt early enuff until i saw u when i went to ur house... bought some otar for ur family and
we ate while we had some gossip...

abt QQ... i'm really not very sure wat to say to him... cos i think he also quite paiseh to say it out also... esp when i noe both him and lin... not only me... kayv and tat also dunno wat to say also... i noe tt he is still affected by the incident... but nevertheless i feel tt he'll be ok after the CNY de...

later in the nite we had a delicious dinner prepared by dar dar, ur mum, and me(i sliced the char siew hor!!!)... watched the 9pm show rite after tt...

then came the stupid problems... cos the printer cannot work at all and dar dar's laptop connection was cut off suddenly... so many IT problems popping out and dar dar became very very sian... cos we spent so much time installing and uninstalling and yet nth gd happened... i was sian also... cos i couldn't scold vulgarities at all.... hahahaha.... luckily managed to solve the network problem... then chatted with dar dar via msn... ahahhaa... sounds a bit boliao but i managed to bring a bit smile to u... heee... then i tried other methods and finally solved the printer problem... whew... spent too much time on this shyt finally can get it to work liao... at tt moment i was very happy... heng i didn't leave early and throw my dar dar alone to clear up the mess... dunno y... my heart tells me not to leave u alone and my whole body refuses to leave... i had no intention of leaving... hee...

so... now tt most of the problems are solved... i'm happy to see my dar dar happy... also very happy when dar showed me those emails and deleted them w/o my help... hee...

yea... think tt's all for today le... i also feel abit drowsy liao... tmr morn still need to do my exec summary... hahhaa... but i will get to see dar dar liao... hee... i love u dar dar!!!! muackz!!!

Been kinda busy with school this few weeks... so nvr really blog for quite some time le... this sem think rather quite cramp lor... haiz... proj haven't come already like tt... then somemore CNY coincides with our mid term break... crap sia... this kind of thing also have... after break got all those shitty tests...

dar dar quite down lately... cos a series of things happened... dar's aunt was scalded seriously ytd... i was quite shocked when u told me this... cos it just happened so sudden... i felt sorry for ur aunt cos this kind of thing is not accidental de... fuck tt guy who caused all these... couldn't he be more careful enuff... nabei shld sue him de lor... abt ur ah ma... think let the adults decide ba... dun worry too much... let's hope both ur aunt and ur ah ma will be alright ba...

anyway... glad to hear tt ur aunt is being admitted to a private hospital... can't believe y hospitals dun allow ur aunt to be warded... somemore those private hospitals no beds liao... hmm... really can't believe it man... sg hospitals really not enuff ah.... so stupid de...

next is the 2 rings... alamak... didn't seem to be the ones we have expected... gave us the same sized rings... somemore these rings look really big... but nvm la... we can always sell it online to other pple... can de... i'll help u sell it through yahoo auction ba...

ur laptop should be ok le ba... except for the network connection thing which i couldn't resolve for u... but think still can sell ba... cos i dun think the buyers will want a preinstalled windows in it anyway... i've already sent a sms and emailed another buyer le... chances tt the selling price will be quite low i think... but anyway.... as long can get rid can liao la... dun bother too much abt it... i will solve it for u de...

have been signing up for surveys in sch de... so far register for 3 le... and tmr shall be my first time doing a paid survey in sch.... so dar... dun have to worry abt money cos i'll try my best to earn thru these surveys and cover our expenses in sch... hee...

ok la... gotta slp now le... just finished chatting wif dar dar.... glad tt my baby princess got smile... hee... ok... just to let dar noe tt whenever u have problems i'll always stand by ur side de and lend u a listening ear and a helping hand... ^_^.... i love u... Muackz...