dunno y... i felt like blogging now...can't get to slp until i write this... cos just now made u sian again... haiz... dunno y i can't control myself... cos i'm tired? nope... think tt i'm just confused about the situation ba... kayv told me tt the real reason was becos of the turn out of the crowd... tt's y he was so sian and tired... he also apologize to me abt his bad behaviour...right now... after clearing my mind and giving a deep thought... felt tt it was my mistake just now to throw my temper... i just couldn't control this feeling... tried to curb it... but somehow it just burst out like tt... then when it happened i'll start to feel quite remorseful abt it...

shldn't have kept asking u here and there... and u told me tt kayv was my frd... i shld noe wat he's thinking... but i hardly see him like tt b4 ma... he was like totally turned off by the zouk crowd... think i'm quite bad at making decisions lei... cos had to stop ur frds from finishing the dance... made them abit turn off also ba... then somehow also quite suay nvr get to eat the bakuteh... wah sia... sorry to make u hungry again... paiseh... then i think u were quite sian when i said abt ur frd lin and QQ thing... perhaps shld just shuddup and dun care abt it...

anyway... everything has already passed... let bygones be bygones man... i also dun wan to think too much abt it... cos like dar dar said... no pt saying this le... cos it already happened... nth can be done abt it... can't go back to the past... only can learn from it and prevent it from happening again...

hopefully everyone can slp and forget abt this thing... i also dun wan care too much abt it le... hahaha... now shld look ahead instead of dwelling the past... hmmm... after u hung up from my call... can feel tt u sounded abit sian... u r tired too ba... cos it's so late ... no i mean early(5.30am)... now le... erm... Gd morning!!!!... hahaha... aiya...dunno wat to write now le... hahaha... perhaps i'll just go and slp now and hope tt everything will be fine tmr...

wah... can't believe time passes so fast le... now it's already 27th le... and i haven't blogged for 7 days le... hmmm... think will roughly blog abt the things we did during the xmas season ba... this is also the only period tt i have a lot of 1st times... lolz...

Thurs: dar dar came over to my house for lunch... then later in the nite we had a wonderful steamboat at ur place... wah... i ate alot tt day... had 2 servings of rice... ate until full full... this was the 1st time tt i ate dinner with ur family... after tt me, dar dar de kor kor and jiejie had a game of cluedo which dar dar had bought at a toysus sale... also my 1st time i ever played this game... quite a fun game cos need to think de... and ur kor kor very funny de... making all those morse codes and stuff like tt... managed to win twice... hahaha... think i'm really a gd detective... wasted ... i shld go join the police force hor... lolz...

Fri: i went to dar dar's house again... then went to compass point to find ur er ge's present... in the end couldn't find tt flask... later in the nite i went to my san yee's place for BBQ... paiseh ah dar dar... i tot i got ask u b4 if u wanna go... didn't noe will lead to this misunderstanding... felt very paiseh... cos my mama and my er jiu asked me y i didn't bring u along... erm... paiseh la... anyway...we only managed to set up one BBQ pit cos the charcoal wasn't gd enough... ate alot of BBQ food too... a dog named gou gou approached me at one of the shelters near my ah yee's place... she's so cute man... mama and i enjoyed playing with her... she was all so excited when my mama brought a cake for me to eat... but couldn't let it eat la... later stomach pain... hahaha... gou gou seemed reluctant to go with the maid and kept looking at me b4... hahaha....

Sat: we went to gallery hotel to have steamboat... 1st time going there... the room was quite gd... the toilet, beds, ambience seemed ok to me... rather gd... hmmm ... think next time i'll bring u here again... just the 2 of us... wahahaha... yea... then we had a great steamboat with all ur flowers... after tt played a bit of boliao games like passing the msg, acting, cards, board games etc... hahaha... 1st time dar dar and me won cluedo... hahaha... after tt u all had ur exchange of presents... was abit surprised when i saw u holding the schedule and the hand lotion... seemed to have some meaning in it... hahaha... dunno y...everyone didn't seem to be very happy with the gifts tt they received... cos b4 opening the presents u all took a pic together... but after the presents were opened none of u suggested taking picture with the presents... so weird... later in the evening we continued to play some card games and went to sleep after tt...

Sun: Xmas eve i went to dar dar's place for dinner... although u helped me to wrap those presents for kayv they all.. u were really fantastic cos the wrappings were done so beautifully... in the nite we went to labyrinth... with kayv tris tat and QQ... has alot of cocktails and hoegarden beer... played with dice and pool... this was also the 1st time i brought u to this mini gathering... cos maybe this was also the 1st time for them to attend this gathering... tt's y they might feel abit sian ba... hahhaa... anyway... thank u dar dar for being enthusiastic... didn't expect u to enjoy so much... but hoped u enjoyed abit tt day la...

Mon: Xmas!!! went to dar dar's place and had a great time over there... we played MJ... board games and had the exchange of presents... my 1st time exchanging presents lei... and u were the one who bought for me the present... a brown color hush puppies polo tee... i liked it very much but it seemed too big for me to wear la... wahahahah... anyway... heng i prepared ur xmas present in advance and i hoped u like each and every gift tt i gave u...

Dar dar thanx once more for brightening my xmas by pei-ing me all these while... it's also my 1st ever christmas tt i spent with u... i really enjoyed myself and i hope tt u like the song tt i've composed... just wanna bring a smile to u... heez... i love u so much dar dar...

~smiley christmas~

It has been raining continuously for quite a few days... makes the weather so cooling... today it's all sunshine... no rain no dark clouds... wat a sunny day... but i'm staying at home to help my mama look after her lian ou tang... she went to play MJ again... and this is her 4th straight time... hmmm... think now got time can blog abt ytd's stuff and perhaps after 3.30pm i'll go out to return the hangten umbrella...or maybe buy a graphics card from simlim square... cos my graphics card spoil le... and i can't play any games man... pui...

Ytd dar dar u came over to my place ard 1 plus... it was raining so heavily and i lent an umbrella to auntie... so at my house... hahaha... we enjoyed the cool and comfy weather... u were so great... make me nua again... hahaha... we went to century sq and tm in search for ur presents... there we saw the flask and the namwcard holder but in the end nvr buy it... instead made a trip down to orchard to see if there's any more gd things over there...

It rained darn heavily... and both of us didn't bring umbrella with us... got hit by those raindrops whenever we moved from place to place... there was this time tt we were stranded at the shelter opposite tangs... we wanted to cross over but couldn't cos the rain was rather heavy... plus there were many vehicles moving across the road... so dar dar and me were busy planning our way to get there and waiting for the chance to do so... then there was this hao xin ren who lent us her umbrella and shared with her 2 other frds... dar dar and me were quite shocked cos she was really a very kind person and could actually sacrifice her own umbrella and squeeze with her frds... somehow i was quite moved by this samaritan act... kind people still exist in this world...

eventually we rented a pink umbrella from hangten and hopped our way through the wet streets in orchard and ps... haiz... didn't manage to find the presents and somehow we felt tt this was a wasted trip... but not totally wasted though... cos we had a sumptuous dinner at ju ju hokkaido hot pot at selegie... the ambience and food was really wonderful... the egg was rather unusual cos it's neither hard boiled nor soft boiled... it's a combination of 2... a semi boiled combination... tasted really great when added with the sweet sauce... we ordered the seafood and fish set meals... and there were a lot of ingredients for the hot pot... abalone mushrooms... fish slices... crab... prawns... meat... vege...and the yellow dabian... mmmmm... yummy... ate to our hearts content... the sour plum juice tasted so nice also... towards the end of our meal... dar dar found out tt there was this flying insect inside her hotpot... quite disappointed with this place as they made this negligence... fortunately this insect is those common insects tt can be found in the rain... not those creepy crawlies or xiao qiang... we told the chinese waitress about it and she was also shocked... after a while... they sent another female waitress to do an indirect negotation... hahaha... she told us if we wanted other xtra desserts at no other charge... i drank the simi lu dessert and told her tt it was very nice... indirectly i was saying: "wo ke yi lai duo yi ge ma?" ... hahaha.. at first i think she didn't get the idea cos she replied tt it was nice... but after a short instant she realised tt i was actually asking for another... so funny... and also i kept adding pressure by saying tt sth may go wrong and asked her how to deal with it... think the waitress did a quite job in handling such matters... i'm only particular abt her reply tt she could guarantee tt nth will happen to dar dar... cos u can't guarantee sth like tt unless u've really eaten the insect b4... by adding a bit of pressure here and there... we were treated like king and queen... hahhaa... we were served with xtra sour plum juice and a famous sweet dessert from the Tao's restaurant... hahaha... so nice... we ate until full full... must thank dar dar if not for u i won't be able to taste such nice delicacies... hahaha... but hor... seriously i'm still quite concern with the insect thing u drank... i would rather i'm the one who drank it and not u... cos i anything also can eat de... except for dabian tt u said u ate b4... ^_^... hahaha... anyway... next time must go the Tao restaurant and eat hor...

tot tt incident will mark the end of the highlights of the day... hahaha... i actually became a laughing stock for dar dar when i slipped and fell in the rain... hahaha... i really landed on my butt lor... backside so pain... but i didn't care much... cos fall down must climb up ma... then i still need to catch the bus... hahaha... i turned back to give u a goodbye kiss ma... hahaha... aiya... paiseh lei... got pple saw me fall down... nvm... they can't see my face clearly also cos raining... hahaha... tt instant machiam like kuku like tt... run in rain with a pink umbrella and slipped... bth... hahaha....

entertainment aside... must thank u dar dar again for ytd... it was also the first time tt i paktou with u in the rain... hee... thank u for ur company... n ur sweet dessert also... hee.. i love u... *muacks*

hmmm... it's 2plus now le... another hr to turn off the switch for the soup... now for the meantime dunno do wat... maybe later go get my old hp fixed... hahaha... stupid sia.. dunno y today suddenly so sunny de... so crap de... manz... i'm looking forward to tmr...

just woke up from my short afternoon nap... have a mild flu... must be the weather ba... so nice to lie down on my cosy bed... start to miss my dar dar...wonder what is she doing now... at the same time blog the things tt i have done for these 2 days...

2 days ago went out shopping with dar dar for the xmas presents... we went to orchard in the noon and started our hunting for the gifts... on xmas we r going to have a xmas gathering at dar dar's house... supposed to have a xmas present exchange but i had chose a difficult lot... haiz... we combed the orchard but didn't manage to find anything nice... luckily huiting jie jie had a backup plan for me... it's a branded cosmetic makeup set tt looks really presentable and nice... think this shld be the most suitable present le ba... hahaha... actually i wanted to find one for her de... cos don't really noe her so there's trouble finding the right present... but i got another prob... cos i noe dar dar so much liao... but i still got prob finding ur xmas present... this really cracked my head alot man... then u told me tt u wanted a new shoe for ur xmas present... hmmm... perhaps i shall settle on tt present first... one of these days we will go shopping again and i'll buy ur new shoe... paiseh lei... cos there's no surprise anymore le... hmmm...

did alot of shopping and trying of my new shoes... i had intended to buy a new pair of brown coloured shoe le... haiz... the substance shoe not bad de... somemore there's a 30% discount on it... when i tried it i looked quite weird in it... wat a waste man... also tried the adidas and asics shoes... then i've decided to buy the asics shoes le... cos it's damn light and comfortable to wear... i can even match it with my berms...

we had our dinner at BIG O and the food was nice... the love bug mudpie tasted really gd... no wonder the waitress kept recommending to us...

there was midnight shopping at wisma tt day... but not many shops on sale la... then we went to alleybar to have a drink... i've nvr been to alleybar b4... this was the first time dar dar brought me to this bar... hee... the ambience was pretty nice... but there wasn't much crowd at tt time... perhaps there was stiff competition between other bars as well... so we ordered 2 pints of kilkenny and erdinger and had a comfortable chat with each other... i was glad tt dar dar didn't want to mickey mouse eventually although i kept psychoing her to try... hahaha... dunno y the bar dun accept my cards de... luckily i had enough cash with me.. else have to let dar dar pay... very paiseh de... hahaha... surprisingly saw my frd kenny in the toilet... told me tt he went to acid bar with his gf... hahaha... but i dunno him very well also la.. so nvr really tok much too... after tt i brought dar dar to Istana park to paktou...then erm... yea... hahaha... the naughtiness in me triggered... hee...

yea... it's been a very long time since i've gone out with dar dar to paktou le... i really enjoyed ur company very much... thanx for pei-ing me tt day... oh ya... dar dar really looked pretty tt day... with or w/o makeup u look absolutely gorgeous to me... i'm proud to have u by my side... hahaha... the sight of u made me wanna kiss u more and more... hee... tt's all for our sat's outing...

ytd i went to my army's frds place at boon lay to play MJ... so long nvr play with them le... had a really fun and great game with each other... cos this is the type of MJ game tt i would really enjoy myself... our motives are mainly to participate in the fun interaction during the game... not abt winning money... so we played 10 cents for each tai and i ended winning $1.20... better than nth... hahaha... so after 2 continuous rnds of MJ we went to JP KFC to have our dinner... i wanted to called u and saw a miss call on my hp... i didn't realise it cos i was in the loo and didn't hear the ringtone... then when i called dar dar back ur sis picked up... said tt u went downstairs for nth and nvr brought ur hp with u... i was shocked and worried cos ur jie jie asked me if i had made u angry... to be honest... i began to panick abit and had the chong dong to come over to find u... cos i was worried... soon after tt u called me back... i felt so relieved... then u told me tt u nvr went down... u were beside all the while... aiyo... made me gan cheong just now... aiyo...
so tt's all for ytd's events la... haiz... i also caught a mild flu too... but now better le la.. after drinking the ge gen tang and panadol flu medicine... i also drank lotsa lotsa water... made me always go to the toilet...

heez... think i stop writing here le... cos needa eat my dinner... yum yum.. now hungry le... hahaha... but i really looked forward to tmr's paktou-ing with u dar dar... heez.. miss ya... muacks...

*miss u alwayz*

finally can find some time to blog abt the things i did in genting... for the past few days i was away from genting with my family... had enjoyed myself over there... so unlike the hot and humid singapore... the weather over there was cold though... cooling man... that was the time tt i didn't sweat so much... hahaha...

Woohoo!!! won some money from the casino... heng i followed ur advice and bought bananas from the rest stop... it really worked man... dunno y... but i think i really believe in this le... next time go there must buy more bananas...lolz... i think i won abt 750 ringgit in total... so most of my expenses and shopping were free... hee... somehow i felt tt dar dar brought me luck... besides gambling... also did some other activities over at genting like watching movies with my bro, mama and aunt... playing indoor rides with my younger cousins... shopping blah blah blah... nth much to do there though but think tt 3 days seem very long...

dar dar... do u noe tt i really miss u alot alot alot these few days in genting? although i could tok to u thru the phone... i still miss u so so so much... cos i wanna see u... i wanna hug u.... i wanna kiss u... all these while u have been in my mind... day in day out... i really miss u like crazy dar dar... those sour feelings really cringe my heart real hard... every night i would rmb to listen to the recordings u made for me... at least 5 times... and i would look at ur pics in my hp b4 i went to slp... then i would also wish tt time will go faster... cos i wanna return to sg as soon as possible to see u... hee... now i'm so glad tt i'm back to sg le...

ytd i went paktou with u... sorry abt ytd noon when i reached quite late to ur place... u sounded quite pekchek when i told u tt i haven't prepare finish... cos i dunno wat time u would finish praying ma... i tot u would lemme noe in advance first... erm... but i tried my best to reach ur place by cab le... i didn't want to take bus cos it was raining... i needed to take umbrella and was carrying a bag of goodies tt i bought from msia... sorry la dar dar... i also made u abit sian when u asked me y i wasted money on those stuff... erm... i bought those cos i really can't find anything nice le... paiseh la... and i didn't meant to raised my voice slightly de... i was joking ard with u de... but realized tt u weren't happy at all... so immediately i tried to apologise to u... somemore ytd was the day tt we finally met w/o seeing each other for 4 days... i didn't wan to spoil our mood... and tried all sorts of "kuku" ways to bring back ur laughter and ur smile... i wanted to make u happy... not sian... i didn't even tot of quarreling(correct spelling ma??? ^_^) with u cos i think there is no need to... guess i brought ur smile back ytd when i knocked myself against the bus stop pillar... must thank sg government for building those pillars... they really come in handy... but perhaps they need to use a softer material... cos quite painful de... wahahahaha...

so the lovely couple happily continued their paktou-ing at city hall... we went window shopping ard at city link and to marina square... i bought those glow in the dark stars for my room ceiling... sian... think i tio pian liao... cos the coloured stars cannot glow de... think it's for the daytime de... only the light green ones can glow in the nite... pui... nvm... like tt i can see stars in the day and at night... w/o having to bang myself against the wall... wahahhaha... we also bought some cotton candy... haha... it was dar dar's first time to eat using the stick de... and could tell she really liked to eat... cos she kept eating it... dar dar also bought her nail varnish... erm... nail polish... erm... nail varnish... aiya... nail varpolish la... lolz... hee.. walking thru marina square also reminded me of the time when i brought u to eat the moonfish restuarant... hahaha... so funny the other time... my dar dar dun tell anyone ok??? we also headed to suntec city mall and did abit of window shopping... we bought the tapioca snack... (erm... dar dar i wanto eat lei... how come ytd nvr give me eat ah??? humph... dun finish everything hor...)

after tt we went back to ur house to have dinner... yummy!!! got hei po eat... yum yum!!! hahaha... i was quite hungry ytd and whacked most of the food... felt abit paiseh tt i ate alot of hei po... but so nice to eat... the other dishes also tasted great... it was a PALATABLE[1] meal... must really thank ur mummy for cooking such a tasty dinner... ur kor kor very nice guy also... cos i think he didn't eat alot then left alot for us to eat... felt very paiseh lei... ate ur kor kor's portion... but anyway... i'm looking forward to the next meal... woohoo!!!

so for the rest of the nite we watched tv and played the dunno-wat game... can't understand y i lost to u despite the fact tt in real life u have alot of bad debts... lolz... occasionally had some short chats wif ur kor kor abt my trips in genting... he quite frdly lei... n i found out tt he didn't mickey mouse in front of me... hahaha... like tt jialat lei... everytime i come he must hide in the toilet to mickey mouse... hmmm... hahaha... ur jie jie also very funny de... everytime i look at her she always give me the stunned look... hahaha... i wanted to laugh but didn't... but hor... the stunned look she gave quite funny... also found out tt u like to argue with her... aiyo... still say i xiong towards my own bro... u also very xiong towards ur sis lor... wahahhaha... but no choice la... sometimes can see tt she nagged at u... didn't have a chance to tok to ur mummy and ur er ge much lei... cos ur mummy already slping le and ur er ge came home quite late... and i had to catch the last bus back home... haiz... i was quite sian the moment when i noe tt i had to leave ur house... somehow i felt tt time was too short... got this yi yi bu she de feeling when i boarded the bus...

thanx dar dar for pei-ing me ytd... i really really felt so happy when i saw u... now i'm hoping tt tmr comes early so tt i can see u again... to look at ur lovely smile... to hear ur lovely voice... and to kiss ur lovely lips... heez... dar dar ... i love u so much... *muacks*

~i wanna see u, i wanna hug u, i wanna kiss u~

[1]: palatable [pal-uh-tuh-buhl] - adjective
1. acceptable or agreeable to the palate or taste; savory: palatable food.
2. acceptable or agreeable to the mind or feelings: palatable ideas.

It's been a very very long time since i've blogged... time to update a bit about the recent events...

after the examz... i stayed at home and painted the remaining areas in my house... bro and mama had already painted most of it while i was having examz... and i told them to leave both my room and my bro's for me to paint... it was very tiring though... on tues i painted my bro's room all by my own and realised tt how tough it was... hahaha... got my body painted as well during the painting process... then on wed morning painted my room with the help of my mama... somehow all of us felt a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment when we finished painting the whole house all by ourselves... we have already saved alot cos hiring pple to do it will cost 1000 over bucks...

so right after finished painting... i asked my mama to jio 2nd uncle and big aunt to have a game of MJ... i've nvr play with them for a very long time le... in the end lost $200++ within 3 short hrs... machiam like paying fee for a MJ refresher course... hahhaa... dunno y... they r too pro le... an amateur like me couldn't play against them... nvm... i shall hone up my skills and make a comeback as the ma jiang zhi zun... lolz...

only till thurs then i get to see my sweetest dar dar... though only 2 days had passed... but the feeling seemed tt a few wks had passed... missed dar dar so much... dunnno y... my heart will cringe and have a sour sour feeling whenever i misses u dar dar... so dar dar came to my house for lunch and we had a great and loving time after tt... erm... i have to admit tt this is the first time tt i experience the feeling of nua... just couldn't get up at all... i really let it all out man... hahaha... somehow dar dar keep playing and teasing ard with our baobei... humph... i've helped dar dar to trim her nails and dig her ears... dunno y... i just love helping u to do it... hee... hmmm... since when i've ever become ur personal body cleaning consultant...hahaha... at ard 4 plus we went to tamp central to hunt for ur earrings stand... too bad the display set was faulty and have to wait for another one mth or so for the next shipment to arrive... we took the shuttle bus to IKEA tampines... this place was really big and spacious than the one in queensway... dar dar managed to buy her DIY boxes and i've also bought some stuff for my use... we also ate the cheap cheap hotdog and it really tasted very nice... hahaha... we headed to ur house at nite for late dinner... gotta thank ur mummy for cooking these dishes... also felt abit paiseh cos i always come ur hosue and eat... think will get fat one of these days... but will exercise next wk de... lolz...

the day came when i got to meet him man to man ytd... he said he wanted to pass u the present and wanted to see u directly... after u told me abt it i quickly rushed over to ur place... i would feel very uneasy if i dun do so... dun quite understand y he wanted to do so even though u have told him to meet at a later time... the present wasn't big ma... so y he wanted to see u directly lei??? to avoid seeing me??? but if he's prepared to meet u le... he should prepare himself to face the situation de ma... guess he couldn't when his face changes when he saw me... nevertheless he said hi to me and i replied hi back... by rite i followed ur instructions and wanted to open the letterbox... but he came to shook hands with me and made a self introduction... i also did the same lor then made my way to the letterbox... but he left soon after handing u the presents...

Back in ur house u opened the presents... seriously la dar dar... i dun like those presents he gave u... dun like it at all... somehow there is more to it... as a very close frd i preach u to have less contact with him... As ur dearest bf i wan u to try not to contact him if possible... cos i think he still kana confusion and needs some time to gather his thoughts altogether... tat's wat i think... i understand tt u will feel abit bad abt this... but dun feel bad ... cos after all... y issit tt u think tt u r bad???... there is no right or wrong ans to this situation... it's just the different way each person perceives... anyway it had already happened... there's no reason to feel bad abt it... just look ahead and we'll move along together ok???

In the late noon we went out with QQ and lin to orchard... had a short window shopping at far east... u gals were looking at the shoes and stuff and i toked to QQ abt his exp with his target... sorry gals for not toking to u all abt this cos i think lin will be quite sian when QQ mention abt his target in front of her... wahahahahha... no la... just crapped abit with QQ lor... then get to find out tt his target abit quite difficult to woo... n somemore he sense competition from another guy... the only advice tt i gave him was to try to ask her out and see if it works... he also think tt way too but dunno y... he seems abit sian abt it... honestly i think i nvr see him like tt b4 lei...

we had our dinner at sakae sushi and ate heartily together... had really a fun dinner cos we kept laughing and laughing... hahaha... still can rmb QQ and his crap abt the praying to the gods thing... when he said tt the gods couldn't understand wat "above" means... lolz... soon after dinner we went to party world to sing... it was a crazy nite for the all of us as we sang like a bunch of lunatics... lin can sing quite well lei... she dun sound like herself when she sings... QQ as usual... sang his fav song and livened up the atmosphere... I had also sang some songs with my dar dar... "superwoman" and "jia gei wo" ... hee hee.. those are the songs tt will always stay inside my memory... as for my dar dar... everytime u sing ur voice will intoxicated me man... so sweet.... so cute... so adorable... for the whole nite we ended up shouting instead of singing.... hahhaa... had a great time ytd man... dun u agree???

so tt's all for these past days de events... paiseh la.. i've only manage to write briefly cos if i write too long i think u will slp while reading my blog... hahaha...
but anyway... think i've told u many times le dar dar... tt u r the only person tt i could really pour out my feelings... sorry to let u hear me "rain" over the phone... dunno y my heart so alive de... humph... but i'm glad to have u by my side so tt i could confide in u whenever i wanted someone to tok to... i love u dar dar... hee...

ok la... so i shall stop writing now le... for the next few days i'll be gnging to genting with my family le... definitely will miss dar dar very much de... but i'll enjoy myself de... ^_^ ... take gd care of urself dar dar... *muacks*