wah... finally can do my blogging le... lolz... search for the blogskin for so long until i finally found this... simple and nice... but needa adjust the divisions... hmmm... ok... wat to write lei??? think this is another outlet i can share my emotions with other pple... (esp wif u... )

ok la... shall begin with sth abt my relationship wif her ba... haiz... ytd was a very emotional nite for me... cos i really dunno wat am i thinking... ytd u sms-ed me asking me if i can study w/o u... at tt moment i was feeling bonkers... i called u... u told me u dun wan the 2 of us le... then i began to think abt this... some time back i've already made my decision not to give u up... no matter at wat cost le... but ytd i actually forced myself to make tt decision cos... i dun wanna make u to suffer anymore... i can't help to bring myself to make tt decision becos somehow i feel tt i'm going against myself... my conscience... & my heart... i made my way to ur place immediately after my dinner... I was in a very low mood...

When i gave u the 999 stars tt i made and put my ring inside... man... my heart was bleeding... yet i couldn't bring myself to the fact tt i have to leave u.... i cherish u... i really had no choice.. cos i dun wan to see u suffer anymore.... it pains me too... it began to drizzle... i wonder if heaven is weeping...

I'm sorry tt I smoked in front of u.... I've already tried my best not to le... when i asked u if u wanna me to do so... u nvr stopped me... instead u told me to smoke... i was very confused then... i feel so fucked up... i have already stopped smoking for 3+ mths le... & ytd i actually broke the promise... i'm such an iiidiot... no wonder u said guys cannot be trusted... haiz... stupid iiidiot me...

It pains me when i saw u lit up the cigarette... i tried to stop u... i held u tight to my chest... reminding u not to smoke... but u constantly pushed me away... i dun wan u to touch it cos i'm scared u might be addicted to it.. i'm worried abt u... i care 4 u... i dun wan u to spoil ur health becos of a stupid guy who cannot keep his promise not to smoke... haiz...

When i thought i have no hope le... u actually opened the container of stars... i was surprised when u told me to find back the ring... i tried my best to find it... i nvr cared abt the fact tt if i dun managed to find it... becos i told myself i die die must find it... no matter at wat cost... even when the container broke i also continued to find the ring... i wan U back... becos i love u... i found the ring and felt so happy abt it...

thanks for giving me this chance...i noe it's very difficult for u... but Lee Michael is here to help u... let's face it together ok??? i wan u to be the happy zhen back... every star that i made represents my hope... my wish.. to make u a happy and cheerful ger...


i cherish u...
i care 4 u...
i love u...