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Thursday, August 02, 2007
4:57 AM

wondering when would my dar dar call me... i'm not sure if she's alright... cos i think she is sorting things out now... haiz... y must this happen to her lei... fuck man... i really dun like the way my dar dar is being treated... perhaps they too conservative le ba... alot is expected out of u.... haiz... i think i shall play my part now... by giving u endless support by ur side... n always be there for u whenever u r unhappy or wat....

i noe dar dar suffer a lot of grievances... alot of unfairness... being compared...i do understand ur feelings... y u can't be like other gals... i noe ur limit is going to blow out one day... within this yr or next... cos i dun think u can tolerate this much suffering le... although it sounds very serious... i'm going to help u all out... sometimes u might feel tt i might not be able to help... i can't give u fullproof solutions but sound advices... cos u might think tt it doesn't concern me directly... but it really does... cos u r my love... my one and only love... i'm not going to leave u behind de...

so long nvr write this blog le... but i hope today dar dar do enjoy herself with my frds... the laughter... the happiness... but now i really hope tt my dar dar is ok... i dun wan her to suffer any more grievances liao... i really hope tt she can be as happy more than being upset... i really pray.. i really hope...

wondering wat u r doing now... shyt... shld have stayed at ur place... then perhaps such things would not happen... damn... wat to do now... i'm feeling so helpless to my dar dar... i noe sth bad is going to happen... damn... i really wan to come over to help u le..

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*I Love You*

Friday, June 15, 2007
12:58 AM

haiz... dar dar now stomach pain pain... y so she have to endure so much pain lei??? i wish i could share part of her pain.. women are not easy to become... all those dayima and pain and bearing child, giving birth... wondering y they have to endure so much pain than guys lei??? is this some kind of a joke tt the divine thing up there is playing... hmmm.. i also dunno lei..... haha...

today went to the education center with dar and lin.... the middle aged man really can tok alot lei... tok until i wanna fall aslp... he also quite weird de... beat about the bush until for so long... could have just straightforwardly told us tt we should go to sales... keep bragging abt how gd sales were and how is it impt in our lives... hmmm... i beg to differ cos it depends on the person and the surroundings also ma... it doesn't seem to me tt the most richest person in the planet is a top salesperson... n also... when he tok abt the correlation thingy abt results and the effort u put in sounds not very logical as well... he's too into marketing le... those stuff abt motivation and watsoever... doesn't seem appealing me at all.. tt's y i generally dun like the concept abt MLM and stuff...

also dun like the way he tried to give dar the msg tt he's rejecdting her... pui... haiz... dun like the way he put so much emphasis on results... wanna shoot him tt dar dar also very gd student de... even my bro also commend her for being a gd student...

but also like tt la... think i also end up working for him liao... but also dunno lei... also got high chance he might dun wan me or may become a fraud or wat... hahaha... dunno la... i just try working in the worst environment for now... then see wat happens... wondering if i'll lament each day like wat dar dar said... hee...

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Wednesday, June 13, 2007
1:42 AM

just finished toking to dar dar... dar dar went to slp le... now time to write sth in my blog... hmmm... earlier when i'm at ur house u told me i nvr respond to jisheng... actually i also not very sure lei... cos i think i only one time nvr respond to him ba... cos tot he toking to u ma... aiya... i also not very sure lei... he also weird de la... when u went down to put coupon i got try to tok to him... but it seems tt he didn't hear me... although i tried repeating myself 3 times... hahaha... sounded like an idiot with no one to respond to me...but nvm la... i tot he didn't hear me though... next time must speak louder liao... hahaha...

alamak... it seems tt i'm not very sociable lei... jialat... i machiam like very hard to get along de... not say i dun like jisheng la... he's responsible and helpful... except for tt bad tone he uses to tease pple... i noe he's teasing pple de... but perhaps it's the tone tt damages the joke tt is made... sometimes i think tt if u wanna joke... u gotta joke with a joking tone... at least i can laugh even if u embarassed me.... and not make me feel like a stupid dumb dumb... though i admit tt i am at times :)... or to make a comparison(which i dun wan to cos comparing isn't tt fun).... when aud and ken tease u.... they meant it in a tone which i think is the most suitable tone for making jokes...hmmm.... or perhaps all these is just abt me being oversensitive or wat... i also dunno if the one to be blamed or not... lolz... aiya... nvm la... just see lor... i noe he's like tt de la... he can't change to my frequency de... i also dun wan to force him to change also.... but just tt in future he can improve on his joking tone lor...

oh yea... and the fan thing... cos i really dunno how to ans u when u said tt i have the fan and yet i say i'm still hot... but really i'm really hot... pardon me on my LL attitude tt i gave to u... cos i dunno how to exactly ans u de...

hahaha... the things i've just said must have made u think tt i'm even more difficult to get along... i also not sure y i'm like tt lei... maybe i do some self reflection and see my own mistakes... but i need dar dar's help to correct mine... i need time to correct myself... but certainly hope tt u will support me in doing this...

wanna get some slp liao.. tmr still need to go for the briefiung at toa payoh hub.... haiz... so far de place... ok la... shall stop here le... will cont some other time...

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Thursday, June 07, 2007
10:12 PM

this morning started my exercise regime... ran for two rounds in the park nearby... did a couple of situps... haiz... only managed to do 6 pull ups... jialat... just pass nia... last time used to do 10 de... now getting puier and weaker liao... hahaha... need to get my body back to gd shape liao....

watched devil wears prada in late morning... quite sian la i can say... cos the story's abt this lady working as an assistant to this old lady boss in a very famous fashion company... she was supposed to work as a journalist de but the HR mistakenly posted her to this post... then how this lady tried to please her boss by completing several impossible tasks... cos her boss is a very shrewd person... wants everything in perfect though very capable... at first the lady tried her best to do her job... but at the expense of her bf and best frds cos she became a changed person le... then the movie ended with this lady getting back to her usual self... haha... dun wan to tok more abt it... cos this show not very nice... lousier than american pie and blood diamond... i give 2/10 for this show... sux... lol...

in the noon went to dar dar's house... saw her mummy cutting her hair... hahaha... not bad lei... u look adorable this way... like baby like tt... hee... then after tt first time went swimming with dar dar... first time i had ever had so much fun in the water...ever in my whole life... erm... actually dar dar look great in her one piece swimming outfit also lei... make me sometimes need to adjust my trunks... hahaha... heez....really had so much fun and laughter with u... thanks dar dar... hee... i really enjoy it...

ok la... now toking to u thru the phone le... hahaha... shalll stop writing here le... tmr then continue... if there's any...

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Tuesday, June 05, 2007
6:27 PM

today is just another day.... time seems to pass off very fast ever since our trip from genting... the mth of may is gone now... here comes june... n slowly my june schedule will be pack with activities... like soccer matches... paktouing with dar dar... sentosa ... roller blading... actually come to think of it there isn't alot of time lor... so really must enjoy these holis le... july got one ict coming... jialat... dunno my physical fitness how liao... cos i think it has been dropping tremendously liao... now wanna run wanna exercise also lazy to do it... hahaha... only indulge myself in more delicious food...

today we did a bit of our business stuff... so far have ordered the clothes from this supplier... who is damn fast in replying... only sent a email and received it within minutes... called the one stop remittance centre and was transferred to a singtel automatic voice message saying tt the hotline tt i dialed is no longer in use... tried calling the second extension line and thankfully a lady picked up the call... but she was not from the remittance company... duhz!!! heng tt time we nvr remit our money thru tt centre... else we'll be tricked lor... hahaha... so much for a reality business encounter...

seeing tt the first option is a bluff... i called the next alternative... one raffles... think this would be better as it is more established... i asked abt the remittance and stuff... too bad they require us to come down personally to do the registration instead of online cos we're first timers... but anyway... we're planning to go to this place tmr and go have a look at how things r done...

besides doing the business thing... also received several msgs regarding the levis jeans... and the person who asked kept asking abt the sizes... seemed to be a very careful online shopper... but in the end ask so much still nvr bid for the jeans... damn waste my time... pui!!! hahhaa... wondering if ur jeans could be sold or not... think can de la... just needed somemore time b4 the jeans find its new owner... :)

dar dar went out with her mum to collect debts... so i'm at home slacking for the rest of the day... read da vinci code and fell aslp for 1 hrs plus... wahahaha... but da vinci damn nice to read... it's a thriller tt reveals some of the anti christian ideologies which i find very interesting... there have been many critics abt this bk... christians of cos would rebut the fact tt jesus was a married man... the thing abt sex as a sacred union between man and woman... and the female worshipping being eradicated by early church in a means to promote political power for man.... questions raised against the bible... well... the contents of this book really interest me alot... erm... dar dar wouldn't be interested ba... cos most of it abt religion stuff... unless u have a slightest idea of the religion u won't be catching the gist of the story... wahhahaha... think dar dar still read the archies ba... lolz...

okiex... mama and bro come back home le... gonna show them the laptop offer tt tat gave me ytd... cos he planning to sign a singtel plan which offers a new lenovo thinkpad T61... i just have to top 1700 for tat can liao... hee... ok la... think shall stop right here le...

miss my baby dar dar...

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Saturday, June 02, 2007
2:49 PM

i am fucking mad now... chao chee bye... i knew this owould happend... fuck man...4 i came to ur house i noe sth to do with him will happen... i dunno y am i behaving like this... i've been thinking... i think i really love u too much liao... tt's y the expectations r high... i hate tt fucker... i really hate him... time would nvr heal this wound of mine.... i'm so fed up now... i wan to control.,.. dun wan to make a scene in your house... just gimme time to calm down...

fuck... i just hate him to core... u told me we shld be happy... but i just can't... cos i dun him to bother u... i hate him... if i have black magic within me... i would use it right away to kill him... no... i dun think killing him would be gd... but i would slowly torture him to hell... even at the expense of my own life... i wan a channel to vent my fucking frustration... i'm willing to sell my soul to evil satan... in order to make him suffer... i hate him... i hate him more than my father's father... i hate him... i dunno y... think i love u too much liao... tt's y... am i escaping from this?? i dunno.... i just hate him very much... if i ever see him again... i woiuld slit his throat and make sure he can';t see his frds and family again... call me evil... but i still hate him... the pain and torture he did to u cannot atone for his sins... i nvr seek for his forgiveness... i just hate him... he can be ur frd... but not mine... one more time he try sth funny... i'll make sure he will suffer... not him... butthe pple ard him suffer... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe u r behind me reading all this le... .i noe u r angry.... but just lemme vent my frustration... i wanna vent it... so tt i can cool down...

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007
11:20 PM

hee... just finished toking to dar over the phone to ensure tt u safely reach home... had a wonderful and happy 9th month with u!!! the mj session was cancelled cos kelly got a stomachache... although we nvr go out pak tou today... i still enjoy my moments with u in my house...

played ps2 with u...the dynasty warrior quite fun rite??? hee... didn't noe tt my mama would jio u to play... i tot u dunno how to play de... turns out tt u pick up very fast... u saved me a couple of times... lol...

also watched american pie 1 with dar dar... hmmm... at first i tot tt show was supposed to be quite nice de... cos tt time when this film was released... it was pretty popular and pple kept toking abt it... but dar and me felt tt this show wasn't tt really nice... i felt tt american pie 5 is better than this one... cos there's this naked mile thing...where college students went to run naked... both guys and gals... n i dunno for wat cause... wahahaha... i wanna run the naked mile man!!! erm... after i watch the show dunno y i couldn't control myself... hee...

at nite we had dinner with my mama... there's pig's intestines soup.... brocolli... steam fish and chilli prawns... then we watched tv together... my mama seem to like to tok to u dar... hahaha... she enjoys toking to u lei... hmmm... seems tt she really likes u alot... later on dar and me went into the bedroom to watch the 9pm show.. damn nice show lor... cos it reflects quite accurately the ups and downs of the relationships of man and woman... i also enjoy the wrestling with u though... so fun man... hee... nvr knew u had such great strength... hahhaa...

dar dar also played CS with me... and wow... she managed to kill 3 guys at a go... this is the first time i ever see her so power de... think u r getting the hang of it le... hahaha...

well... HAPPY 9 MTHS 2gether!!!! hee i really enjoy each and every moment with u... i felt so happy with u ard by my side... thanks alot dar dar!!! u really make me a real happy person!!!

i love u!!!

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